failure

   Since I have started college, I have had more failures than I've ever had before. I always thought that I had not time to make mistakes or to fail at something, but now I am learning that it is okay, I guess. I should start with math and how much of a failure I am when it comes to that subject. I am currently failing my math class and I never understand anything my teacher ever explains, and the homework makes me cry, literally. I am also not doing the best in my history class, because I never speak up and I never share my opinion, I mean I want to but I feel as if my opinions are wrong, which is not the way I should be thinking about it.
   Mistakes have played a huge role in my life because I have made a lot of them. There have been a couple of times where I made a mistake and I though it was the end of the world, but in reality it helped me grow. One time at my work, I made a mistake in how I was making the chips, my boss corrected me, and I learned how to make the chips right. I know that this doesn't sound very important but it helped me learn that if I didn't know how to do something, then I need to ask someone how to do it right way.
   How can I make peace with my imperfections? This is a very hard question for me because I just don't like thinking about my imperfections, because I know I have a lot of them. I hope that I will soon learn how to deal with my imperfections and learn from them because I don't want them to hold me back.
   I need to understand that there are going to be things that I am just not good at and I will have to be okay with that. I hope that I will learn how to deal with failure, so that I can reach my goals and so I can be able to help others understand that failure is okay. I don't want anything to get in the way from reaching my goals. I know that it will be a difficult journey for me to understand that failure is okay, but I think I can do it. I have a list of goals and one of them is to learn how fail, and fail gracefully.